Maybe I'm Amazed

The other day, I hadn't had a shower, threw on some old shorts and a t-shirt. Not even sure what we were doing, but definitely not leaving the house I guess. And Jesse looked up at me with her sweet smile and beautiful blue eyes and said, "Mommy, you look so pretty." My heart melted completely. I grabbed her up and said, "Jesse, you look so pretty too." She gave me the sweetest smile again as if I told her she was a princess. I understand how that feels, because she just made me feel like one...even though I was a mess. And I love her for that. I am amazed by her.

The other day, in spite of our Summer relaxed bedtime rules, Jonah wanted me to read him a book upstairs. Ok. We went up alone together and read one of our favorites by Eric Carle, The Very Hungry Caterpillar. And he had his snack as we watched that little caterpillar get fat for the 100th time and turn into a butterfly. And then, as usual, he brushed his teeth and we turned out the lights. "Mommy, will you lay with me for a minute?" Sure baby. He asks me every time. Even though he knows he doesn't have to. "Mommy, will you scratch my back a little bit?" Sure baby. Then, as I get up after a good scratching, "Mommy, can I have a sip of water?" Sure baby. Every single time. Exactly the same routine. I kiss him and tell him good night and he's my best boy. I love you. "I love you too." And every single time, I am amazed by him.

The other day, I was in a mad rush to get home from work and get out of the house for baseball. Running around like a crazy person gathering what we needed. I was a mess. My love reminded me on the way that it didn't matter if we were late. It just DID NOT MATTER. What was important was that we were all together and enjoying, loving each other. He was so calm. I was mad at myself for not being the same. Stupid. And as usual, I was amazed by him. I should have told him so.

I am constantly amazed that these three human beings make me feel like and strive to be a better person. Every day they keep working on me. And I'm trying every day to be more amazing for them.

So, today, I took my Friday off. Yes, I could have worked and "made up time." But today, I wanted to have an amazing day. So, I did.

Day at the park, take-out hot dogs back to the park for a picnic, Ms. Kelly joining us for hot dogs, pool...then slip-n-slide. Yes, I crammed as much in as I possibly could.

I love you, my three Amazings.